A new day?

Hey guys, this is kind of disturbing, a bit vulnerable, I was going to end my life 2 hours ago, I'm 20, I got rejected from the college I always wanted to go to, even after studying for 2 years straight, I lost my girlfriend a few months ago, I had a hemorrhage right after that, I survived that, I wished I was dead back then but, this drawing came up in my mind from back in middle school right now, I wanted me to live, I guess I live to see another day, I wish things get better.